I did not load any film since week #16. Feeling kind of pissed about the results and failures of the last rolls. Seems like my expectations concerning picture quality rose above my capabilities of making them come true using film. My fault of course.
I returned to shooting film to slow down after the usual digital detour. Fumbling around with film still feels like sidestepping off the highways of life on which we are being pushed along in constant acceleration. And it feels good, one one side.
On the other side film drives me crazy. The whole process has so many traps that you can step into and that can easily spoil all your efforts to create good photographs. And scanning negatives is just a pain in the ass.
Slowing down however, is something that has to become a state of mind if it should work properly. It should not be a matter of gear. So I try to preserve the positive effects of shooting film – like composing carefully, judging the relevance of a scene, trying to avoid the instant look at the screen – and try to apply them on shooting digital with its much higher workflow-security.
I´m taking a break. Not able to take more disappointments at the moment. But nevermind – if things work out like they have done in the past, I will be back after some time. 😉